Hellbent

Apr 17

Nemara’s pre-teen years are gonna gonna be interesting…

Apr 8

I am the best John, it is me

TG: sup
EB: DAVE!
TG: hey john
EB: *runs in midair towards you in mock slow motion*
TG: *just stands there watching you*
EB: *tender bro embrace*
TG: *tender bro embrace*
TG: you're shorter then I thought
EB: *hands slip under cape*
TG: ok we're heading past my comfort zone
EB: *gives you a wedgie*
TG: motherfuck

Mar 11

Sometimes, I wish
I could put the world
on pause.

Not so I could
admire the beauty
in things,

but so I can catch
up on my fucking
homework.

Feb 28

there’s lightning in my eyes

every time i close them

but when my eyes open nothing comes out

there’s lightning building up

it’s in my eyelids

it’s trapped and it stings and it stings and it stings and i scream
but it still wont come out

i can cross them and wiggle them roll them wildly in my head

lightning strikes and my head rattles and there’s a high-pitched whining and a feather in my throat

and my hands are gone

lightning in my eyelids and there’s an itch at my throat and where are my hands?

MY HANDS?! they’re not there, there are only stubs no wire-thin wrists no bony hands or crooked fingers

i see them there but there is no feeling

this thunder rolling in my head wont stop

it’s a storm! it’s a raging sea! something uncontrollable something ungodly something that strikes FEAR!

into the hearts of men.

and i live with it

day after day

night after night

and everytime i close my eyes there’s lightning there, stinging me some more, a swelling ocean beating at my heart and it’s dragging me downdowndowndowndowndowndownDOWN!

And everything get all topsy turvy and no way is right and THAT DAMNED LIGHTNING!!!

CLAWS REACH OUT AND TAKE IT! YES! LIGHTNING FINALLY FREE

electricity burning in my sockets and the wide ocean gushing from my ribs and bones and everything is spinning thunder roars and then i fall

i realize the thunder is screaming

the ocean is blood

and the lightning is pain

and i was the vessel that housed it all

oh what an irresponsible thing to do, to show the world the things inside real people

nobody needs to drown in my ocean. no one should be woken by the thunder. and who should worry about a little lightning? Nobody wants these things, so who am i to let it go?

“that would be selfish”

“that would be easy”

“it’s so irresponsible”

DONT tell me these things; i already know. I got the shit end of the damned stick and I WANT OUT LET ME OUT
LETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUT!!!!!!!!

I don’t have time for this

I just want to go home